Being thecarrielator

I’m going to be honest with you. I didn’t see Star Wars until The Force Awakens came out last year. I’d seen parts of The Empire Strikes Back when my brother watched it when we were children, and I knew who Anakin Skywalker was, but I was more interested in lining up my soft toys, playing with my dolls house and writing stories non stop. Then last year I wanted to be in on the hype with the new film, so I binged watched all previous 6 films, starting with A New Hope and ending with Revenge of the Sith. I immediately fell in love with them. It was an entire endless world that had been created – the only other time I had see that was with Harry Potter.

I searched up the main cast on Twitter and found Carrie Fisher’s account active. Princess Leia was my favourite character purely because she was the only woman (a strong, smart, funny and powerful one at that), and I resonate towards female characters. If you’ve seen Carrie Fisher’s Twitter, you’re probably as baffled as I was the first time I came across it last December. And if you haven’t come across it, she tweets in emojis. Just go and see for yourself. It took some figuring out but I quickly learnt how to decode her emoji language when it seemed that almost nobody else could. I thought about creating an account to translate her tweets into normal written English, because honestly, it bugged me seeing so many people replying to Carrie saying they couldn’t understand her. I left it a couple of months, but then in March I finally created one. I translated a few of her tweets and wrote my own tweet saying that if anyone couldn’t understand her tweets then I was there to translate them and help people understand. I went to sleep for the night and that was that. Until I woke up.

The first thing I do when I wake up is check my phone and social medias to see what’s happening in the world that day. But waking up on that day was different. There was a seemingly endless scroll of notifications on my lock screen. It turned out that about half an hour after I went to sleep, Carrie Fisher had retweeted me and I gained 1000 followers literally overnight. And so from then on, I set up tweet notifications for her account so that I’d know when she tweeted in “Carriemoji” as I dubbed it with a friend, and could translate ASAP. I began to get incredibly kind messages from random people appreciating me, or just finding the whole thing funny, which made me feel really good, especially if I was feeling crappy that day. It was the best feeling to have a purpose and be recognised and appreciated for it, even it was just “translating” weird little tweets by someone that famous. What I’m trying to say is that Carrie Fisher and her emoji tweets really made an impact on my life and I don’t really know how to explain how grateful I am for that.

I got Carrie’s latest autobiography The Princess Diarist as a Christmas present and I’m already half way through. It’s captivating to be let into her world as she was filming the first Star Wars. One of the things that stood out to me from the book is how she talks about how she was told to lose weight for the role of Princess Leia, but she never did. To me, Carrie Fisher was someone who defied social norms and said fuck you to people who didn’t like it. That’s someone I want to become.

I’m trying not to be sad about her death, but thankful for her existence.


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8 Responses to Being thecarrielator

  1. Mark says:

    Thank you for your service. Bless you.

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  2. Amy says:

    What a kind, open, and generous post. Thank you for the history on the account and going with your gut and setting it up in the first place. It is that still, quiet voice that resonates with us all, though most are prone to ignore it. You didn’t. Thank you.


  3. Matthew says:

    It is always interesting to think of the implications that a single event can have on the world–large and small, they permeate in their impact forever. I found my way to your blog due to the passing of our dear Carrie Fisher. I had never visited her Twitter before today, but I figured I would do so as a sort of tribute to read words that had flowed from that beloved witty mind of hers. To my bafflement, I arrived on her Twitter to find a vomit spewing of emojis. I originally thought someone had hacked the account, but upon further inspection, there was a method to the madness and a translator to go along with it! I was touched at the scene. From there, I found my way here, and I am so glad that I did despite the strange circumstances that had to precede for this to happen. As an 18 year old student who struggles with social anxiety and potentially Asperger’s, I find some kind solace and solidarity with what I have read here on your blog.

    “Y debo decir que confío plenamente en la casualidad de haberte conocido.”
    “And I must say that I trust fully in the chance of having met you.”
    –Julio Cortázar

    Thank you for sharing your thoughts. You have gained a follower.


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    • Thank YOU for sharing your thoughts. Carrie’s tweets were quite baffling but I believe that it was a product of her creativity, humour and just not taking life so seriously attitude. I’m glad my posts about Asperger’s have made you feel that way, aside from being therapeutic for me, it’s why I write them.


  4. SJ says:

    Dear (former) Carrielator,

    I honestly want to thank you very much for your work – tonight I was again reading a little about Carrie Fisher, thinking about her special and witty personality, also thinking about other people who like me who are more or less “psychological interesting” as I like to frame it at the moment (instead of listing all of my diagnoses). I first stumbled upon your traslations of her tweets, which made me laugh and think and then upon your blog, which reminded me of my 18-year old self, but with more wisedom than I had then and even enough wisdom to give me some new ideas as a Thirtysomething – I think you did great work and are still doing great work with your blog and are also a very special, witty and interesting being. I wish you all the luck in the world, hang on to your goals and your ability to write and think and create and translate!

    Many Thanks and good luck from a small European Country (therefore a not native English-speaker, pardon for that)
    32-old-year old fan of you and Carrie
    (who somehow made her way though university, having a lot of fun there despite the fun with my interesting psyche – which I also recommend to you – and finally even got a job in the media, which is as not half as good as the one I believe you will land there)

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    • This comment made me well-up, so congrats to you for hitting me right in the emotions. Carrie was incredibly special and her wit was one of my favourite things about her. Thank you for your kind words about me, I can’t explain the capacity in which they mean to me, but I really wish I could! Thank you so much.


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